Childhood is closely intertwined with the feeling of losing the past. The period of
life when I felt complete freedom and safety has passed, and the person I was as a
child no
longer exists..
Drawing upon the concept of memory reconsolidation, which involves multiple rewrites
of memories that are triggered upon revisiting a previously formed memory trace, a
thought arises: Do our authentic memories of past experiences persist, or do we
merely retain rewritten imaginary memories supported by visual materials?
In 2021, for my birthday, my dad digitized old videocassettes from my childhood.
After the war, these videos took on completely different meanings for me.
The pre-war life is becoming hazier, and the present and future are becoming more
unpredictable.
The deformation of objects on the old videocassettes, overlays of strange sounds,
children's cries, and distortion of colors are something that shows and visualizes
the
ambivalence of our new reality, and the sense of fragility of personal experiences
and memories.
